What are your negative emotional addictions?

[Georgia Michalicek]

I do have a negative emotional addiction that I’m not sure what to name it. It happens when I am working on a project as a volunteer, do much of the leg work to get others interested in helping, and when they do, they step in to take control or take credit for what I’ve done. Maybe it’s jealousy, or some kind of hurt from past experiences when others received credit for things I created on the job. I used to have a boss who seemed to not hear me when I approached him with creative or new ideas, and then 6 months later, he would bring up the same topic in a meeting and give credit to someone else who had spoken to him about it. This is a negative emotion that I prefer not to feel as I am, in my heart, all about collaborating and cooperating with others to get things done as we create this new earth where life is good for everyone, and all is love. I want to celebrate others’ ideas and their interest and participation in projects rather than thinking about who gets credit – lift each other up!!

[Georgia Michalicek]

I hope this is the correct place to post what I like about myself. As I read Week #2 assignments, I found it difficult to come up with even one thing I wanted to share daily. So it took a couple days, and today, I realize that this is something I have been working on for awhile so as not to overwhelm myself by doing too much. I like that I now can communicate my boundaries truthfully with others when it comes to doing too much, or adding things to my schedule they want me to do when I’m already very busy and need to care for myself and my needs, too. Setting boundaries & Caring for myself first so there is something left to give when I am doing for others.

[Georgia Michalicek]

I like that in all my life, no matter how difficult things seemed, or how alone or sad I felt at any given moment, I never gave up. I like that I trust myself enough that I never give up.

[Dolores Candelaria]

Still working with making myself and others wrong. The name is “wrong, wrong, wrong.”

I like / love that I am constantly open to learning how to be a better person.

[Dolores Candelaria]

Upon further reflection, the title of “wrong, wrong, wrong” doesn’t serve me. I am changing it to “nothing to fix here”.

[Dolores Candelaria]

I went to the Communication Forum and was not able to post anything; so, I came back here with a few questions.

(1) During our Tuesday meet, you seemed to be implying that one half of our body is evil? What half and why do you say that?

(2) I do not understand the sentences “Today I am giving you a break. I trust you.” Please explain further. Thank you!

[Rashawn Gilmer]

I’m addicted to the feeling that my real value comes from how much I can be of help to others. I used to feel I didn’t have a place if I couldn’t help. I try to downplay that role now so that I can just be satisfied being a participant in a community just as I am.

[Rashawn Gilmer]

Now what I like about myself is that I usually make quick corrections when I see a needed shift. Some issues are deeper and need more actions to de-root them. So I like that I get to work doing such steps and that I’m more comfortable with mirror work too.

[Michelle]

Aloha, I’m sorry I’ve been MIA. I wasn’t getting notified and then I finally did.

This is all really great awareness.

Georgia, notice that part of you that you shared. I’m betting you’ve had that a long time. We’ll be doing a practice around childhood trauma this week. Trauma doesn’t have to be big. It could be simple as getting embarrassed. I’ll share more tomorrow.

Dolores, I love your observation that there is a part of you that makes yourself and others wrong and then you wanted to fix it by changing the name. That’s all good. However, that part of you that makes others wrong, practice breathing into it and letting it be in your body just as it is without trying to fix it. Say, “There’s the feeling of making myself and others wrong that is present in my body.” Breathe and just notice the feeling. It will help to do this with eyes closed. Then, have compassion for that part of you. We’ll be doing this practice this week.

Your questions:
(1) During our Tuesday meet, you seemed to be implying that one half of our body is evil? What half and why do you say that?
Answer: I don’t remember this .There is no part of your body that is evil. All humans have trauma. That allows us to emotionally expand through it by fully accepting and embracing it as a part of who we are with nothing to fix. I’ll explain more later.

(2) I do not understand the sentences “Today I am giving you a break. I trust you.” Please explain further. Thank you!
Answer: You say that while looking in the mirror at yourself. It’s meant to create a friendship between your thoughts, body and heart. =)

Rashawn: Mahalo for your share. Practice fully embracing that part of you that wants to help to others. Let it be in your body. My guess is that it comes from wanting to be loved. We all have that and have different ways of getting love. Explore putting your hands on your heart and noticing that feeling. Tell it, “You are not good or bad or right or wrong. Your a frequency that lives in my body. I welcome you to be here and I’m more than this feeling.” Then take deep breaths. I like what you like about yourself.

Great job everyone!

More to come on Tuesday.

[Georgia Michalicek]

One positive thing that is improving in my life daily is I’m taking more actions to find the right resources for my health and well-being instead of letting myself believe that I don’t have choice in the matter because of my age.

[Cheri Aspenleiter]

I am sorry I missed our classs> was so stressed out I fell asleep and forgot and felt terrible I miss you guys. . I guess I just can’t stop helping my son and granddaughter … I dont know if that is an addiction though It is a moms love for her son and granddaughter that I always have . To help them. I am weary.

[Michelle]

I love that. Keep thinking, “I wonder how this is going to work out? Things always work out for me so I’m curious what’s going to show up in my life to support me more with my health.” =)

[Michelle]

Check-in and do what is right for you. If you didn’t think you “had” to help, what would your heart tell you to do? Listen to the recording under week 2. It’s the 2nd one. =)

[Georgia Michalicek]

I have a song I’d like to share with the group that came to me on FB last night. It makes me happy and I am using it as a way to meditate my way along with music. It seemed easier and flows better for me than just closing my eyes and listening to words, although the words in the song create the space of flow, too. In-JOY! We are like a lighthouse

[Georgia Michalicek]

One more comment: Michelle has spoken several times about the imperfections in life and how we can find beauty even in the toughest lessons of our life. I have been fortunate to have a friend and artist in Arizona who has shown that style of art in many things she creates, taking photographs of old rusty objects, creating and animating masks of “negative” emotions in performances, etc. The Japanese concept is called wabi-sabi. Do a simple search on the internet to read about it. For me, I am practicing seeing the beauty in everything more and more as I am taking this course with all of you, and that is one thing that I am improving in my life daily. Thank you, Michelle – and everyone here!

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